TIRED but...

salam... hey again... well i have a feeling that this post won't be as long as my previous post.. yeah well.. i'm a bit tired.. some of you might find this rather strange.. how come ezma boleh tired??? and while on a long break plak tu?? hehe... well my heart simply feels tired lately.. emotionally tired is much more deadly than physically tired..

wanna share a little experience i had this few days.. but let me tell you a little story..

once upon a time.. there lived an evil emperor who wished to live longer than others.. but all his sorrceres were unable to make the elixir of life that can make him immortal..of cause he didnt have the expertise of lord voldemort or dumbledore.. but still. this emperor wanted to live longer than everybody else.. no one can exceed his age.. if anyone did lived longer than him.. he would say... "OFF WITH THEIR HEADS"...so, to make sure people couldnt live longer and healthier than he was.. he ordered the sorcerers to create poisons that caused various illnesses.. let the people died of some horrible diseases.. he wanted NOBODY NOBODY BUT HIM..LALA.. to live a healthy long live..if immortality was impossible.. than HEALTH WAS THE WEALTH.. and then the people would struggle to find the cure for those diseases.. these people are locally known as SENSEI..these sensei had the background nowledge about how to treat the disease.. and one day.. the emperor fell seriously ill.. he asked the SENSEI GANG.. consisting of ASADA RYUTARO as the head SENSEI and other incredible SENSEIssszz.. to treat him.. but the sensei couldnt do much because the disease was deadly and not even a BATISTA procedure could save the emperor.. so the emperor cursed the SENSEI.. ALL OF YOU WILL BE DOOMED.. DOOMED.. YOU WILL SPEND YOUR LIFE TIME AND THE LIFE TIME OF YOUR NEXT GENERATIONS TO FIND THE CURE FOR THE ILLNESS THAT I HAVE SPREAD.. and later, after extensive evolution and development.. the sensei are called doctors.. well.. i just made up this story.. why?? because sometime when you are in this field.. although only by a few percentage.. you'll feel that sometimes.. it is like the doctors are cursed.. having their hearts broken after loosing so many patients and later their hearts are as hard as SI TENGGANG..or MALIN KUNDANG.. and they give comments like.. I AM SO SORRY.. THERE'S NOTHING WE CAN DO... hello!!!!!!! memang sometimes dah doctor pun keupayaan terbatas.. nak buat mcm manee kan. but the fustation is always there kan..it's hard to be a doctor but it's the hardest being the patient..

my heart is tired.. soooo tired that i wish i can pause it's beating.. wanna tel my heart.. i know you are tired.. let's hit the pause button.. hahaha.. boleh tak buat cmtu??? hahaha..